It's obvious you won't forgive me
obvious you don't care
it shows when you try not to ahow anything
it glares at me behind all your sorrow and hate
and yet, here i sit wait
when all hope is already lost

why don't you care for me anymore?
those few quick weeks
i actually talked to you
seems like a lifetime wasted,
like a wish unfulfilled
yet there is this yearning,
when i know uou still won't care for me again
no matter what i do

even if i stay up on your doorstep all night
or write to you a nillion times,
there's no hope for you to right my wrongs
it was all my fault
and im pretty sure you'll never see this
and you orobably wouldnt care if you did
but i have to try to make you understand that
while this is a hopeless struggle for me
and easy for you to turn a blind eye
i stay up pondering why i'll never be accepted anymore

while the answer is right infront of me
i hope i am delusional
and am seeingt the wrong thing

wont you tell me i am seeing the wrong thing?

won't you tell me im being ridiculous and accept my apologies

im sorry for the unnesecary wrong that i have caused you

with this useless rant
i hope for the millionth time
that you are able to oversee my imperfections
and allow me to know you again
oversee and forgive my multiple exploitations
and forgive me once and for all